Monday, August 28, 2006

when it's over

1) i feel sad because of certain things.

2) i feel happy because i bought lots of stuff at Bangkok.

3) i feel loved because You're worried for me.

4) i feel worried for nenek.

5) i feel lost because ... just because.

6) i feel quiet because i've learnt not to express my opinions to certain ppl.

7) i feel loud because of all the unspoken thoughts in my head.

8) i can't think of anymore "i feels"

sigh. i want to tell the world something. but the same something is keeping me back. i wish i could spank my inner moppet and just forget about it. i wish it were easier done than said.

i'll be back tonight. :)

You : I'll sms as soon as i touch down. i love you.

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Friday, August 25, 2006

Rocky

My grandmother has been feeling very weak..
She's been in and out of the hospital lately..
Sigh. She's very sick.
I went to her house last night.. and i left.. scared.
We're prepared... we are.

Mum had asked me to visit her before i fly off to Bangkok, Thailand.. flight's in 3 hours.
Let's pray she'll be fine.

See you in 4 days time.

You : i'm sorry.. take care. YKILY.

don't go yet.. i'm not done telling you how much i love you..

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Wednesday, August 16, 2006

Useless facts about Hana.

She has a horrible sense of direction. Forget asking her where to go next, she can't tell you. :D And don't bother asking her to 'lead the way' when you're in a game like flyff.
She is unfortunately addicted to flyff. Will spend that many more hours just to get one level higher, even if it means levelling at 0.2% per monster, at 30 seconds per monster killed.
Has an unfortunate habit of exaggerating. For example, she may take only 10 seconds to kill one monster, but feels as if it were 30 seconds (see point 2), and hence says so. :)
Has a different type of pain threshold. When it's painful, she doesn't think it is. When it's not painful she likes to think it is. :D
Wants to find an employer who will pay her to laugh.
Wishes she had not opened the email about "Washing your bras before using them." It gives her the creeps. *shudders again* (I'm not kidding. Even if that photo was photoshopped, I'm still traumatised.)
Wants to go have a cup of coffee with Farhan. :( *i miss you.*
Wants her room to get cleaned up by magic.
Has a huge crush on a primary school teacher. -_- (yes the facts are getting more -_- because my brain suddenly cannot function.)
Wants a baby lawolf. Ahem. :D HAFIZ this means you too. You both are by far richer than me. So get me a baby lawolf. NOW.
I prefer to think it wasn't me typing.

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Saturday, August 12, 2006

a bit "buang karancurrent"

So the dearest mummy, Mak Uteh and I went to watch :

A Karan Johar movie.. at well, 11pm. All 195 minutes of it. (and yes, i just got home)
Haha.. Despite the stars that were featured, it was quite a blah movie..

The message behind the story wasn't convincing.. at all. You guys don't need to waste your money.. Just wait for the VCD to come out. Really. Total waste of time... unless you like Amithab Bachan. And he was the only character i liked in the whole movie. -_- (even though he was acting as an old OLD playboy who has different women everyday ~ he calls them the days of the week because he can't remember their names, just the day they meet him for you know what. *ew.* *gag*)

And yes, it being a Karan Johar movie, had beautiful scenery, wonderful acting, beautiful costumes (even though SRK's wardrobe were (a lot) sequined) ... but a disappointing story line.

And the only time i felt the urge to tear (and i didn't) was when the mother-in-law asked the daughter-in-law if she could stay with her instead of with her son (the jackass who had an extra-marital affair). Which is a record since i cried till kingdom come when i saw Kal Ho Naa Ho AND Kuch Kuch Hota Hai AND Khabi Khushi Khabi Gham.

Still. I had fun. Amithab Bachan makes a convincing playboy. And it's weird how Hindi movies have evolved. They were speaking english half the time. And there's even a part where two characters find themselves in an adult novelty shop. -_- Which was quite funny.. but whatever lah.

The only time mum sat up straight with excitement during the movie was when Kajol suddenly appeared. -_- And she's not even a character in the movie. -_- -_- Haha.

So, go only if :

1) You have ten dollars to waste (not inclusive of the amount of popcorn and drinks you have to consume to sit through 2 and a half hours of hindi movie)

2) You are the biggest fan of Shah Rukh Khan. (and because you want to see his new haircut *which looked quite nice i admit*)

3) You don't mind watching all of 30 seconds of Kajol in a pink/purple? sari dancing with Amithab and Abishek Bachan.

4) I don't even have a fourth reason. :)

Okay.. So now i'm feeling super tired. I need to go get shleep.

p.s : i miss you. last time i met you was tuesday.. *small smile* but it feels longer than that. sweet dreams.

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i'm worried. but i don't know if anything will help.

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Thursday, August 10, 2006

happy dodos!

i am a happy girl. *beams*

the boyfriend took me to see the fireworks display on tuesday.

happy happy happy.. that's all you need to know. haha..

i think fireworks are one of the most beautiful things EVER. heh. the only drawback was the mass of sweaty(gross) ppl around you while you're standing there oohing and aahing at the fireworks. hehe. you can't have everything lah. :)

here you see two happy dodos on their way home.

the day before that, i had a checkup at the hospital.. and the trainee nurse did this :

it's now Thursday and it's still black and blue, albeit not so swollen. grr. *whines some more*

ah well, i'm still a happy girl.

You : thank you so much for the fireworks. i know you were tired, Mr Teacher, and i thank you with all my heart for it. :) and thank you for the endless stream of messages when i got a tad panicky about the check-up. i love you. hehe. but you know that already.

have a great day world.

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Wednesday, August 02, 2006

Infatuation vs Love

I blogged this 2 years ago.. And i find it very true, now more than ever.

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Infatuation vs. Love

Infatuation is instant desire - one set of glands calling to another.

Love is friendship that has caught fire. It takes root and grows, one day at a time.

Infatuation is marked by a feeling of insecurity. You are excited and eager, but not genuinely happy. There are nagging doubts, unanswered questions, little bits and pieces about your beloved that you would just as soon not examine too closely. It might spoil the dream.

Love is the quiet understanding and mature acceptance of imperfection. It is real. It gives you strength and grows beyond you - to bolster your beloved. You are warmed by their presence, even when they are away. Miles do not separate you. You have so many wonderful little films in your head that you keep replaying. But near or far, you know they are yours, and you can wait.

Infatuation says, "We must get married right away. I can't risk losing them."

Love says, "Be patient. Don't panic. Plan your future with confidence."

Infatuation has an element of sexual excitement. Whenever you are together, you hope it will end in intimacy.

Love is not based on sex. It is the maturation of friendship, which makes sex so much sweeter. You must be friends before you can be lovers.

Infatuation lacks confidence. When they're away, you wonder if they're cheating. Sometimes, you check.

Love means trust. You are calm, secure and unthreatened. They feel your trust, and it makes them even more trustworthy.

Infatuation might lead you to do things you will regret, but love never steers you in the wrong direction.

Love is an upper. It makes you feel whole. It completes the circle. It fills the empty space in your heart.

Love is elevating. It lifts you up. It makes you look up. It makes you think up. It makes you a better person than you were before.

If you have love in your life, it can make up for a great many things you don't have.

If there is no love in your life, whatever else there is has a lot less meaning.

And so i embrace you, just because.. :)

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Ahha.. i can't help it. The blogskin makes me all.. jiwang. What's english for jiwang? Haha. Ok i don't know. :) Of to tuition! Bye!

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1:03 PM

minced memories

don't you fret
my dear marius
i don't feel any pain
a little drop of rain
can hardly hurt me now

you're here, that's all i need to know.

~eponine, les miserables

heh. whizzed back to years gone by just by watching clips of Les Miserables on youtube. :)

ah. the songs are haunting. *blinks*

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ran a couple of errands today.. sent the cats for their second vaccination.. got my Go! card..

i feel restless. haha.
ok. have nothing else to say.

out.

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