Friday, December 31, 2004

Here i am at 4.37 a.m blogging.

I have snuck into my parents' bedroom after hearing from my brother that he's been sneaking into their bedroom at night during the fasting month to use the internet.

yes. it can be done.

but i am too chicken shit to sit here and well, type.

this is what control does to you.

stupid things.

crazy things.

sigh.

sometimes i know ppl take advantage of me because i'm the eldest, and i have my duties, and i will obey them, no questions asked. sigh. it's unfair when ppl take advantage of that fact.

they try to make you feel bad for not doing something for them. they make you feel bad when they don't get their way. they know you'll always give way to them when it comes to anything.

it didn't occur to me till recently how much they've psychoed me into actually accepting this.. i've actually been feeling bad when they do not get their way. it didn't occur to me to stand up for myself and saying no to them for a change.

for who likes a daughter who says no? all i thought was, they'd probably accuse me of being an ungrateful child.

but is it really being rude to your parents when you tell them what you want?

well, i haven't been telling them what i want. i've been accepting what they want.

and recently, i just went nuts just thinking about it.

~*~*~*~

it's not easy being the role model in the family. you're not allowed to make mistakes. a small error is frowned upon.

i hate it.

sigh.

and i can't escape it.

oh well.

Hana Last Blogged At
4:51 AM

Saturday, December 25, 2004

My brain is screwed.

There's a ticking going on in my right eye. No, my left.

I feel ok, but i don't feel ok.

I'm sick, but i'm not.

I say the right things, but i don't.

I say many many stupid things.

Help.

Hana Last Blogged At
8:33 PM

Wednesday, December 22, 2004

Have decided to make my archives weekly...

'Cause the pics are taking a lot of space and ppl have trouble loading the page..

Going out in a while to spend the rest of the day with Dude.. *huge smile*

Have to bring my Econs notes with me though.. *not so huge smile*

Ah well, at least i'll be able to see him...

*currently hears Hakim the monster shouting in the background*

I miss everybody... There was supposed to be a class gathering today... But yeah, it was cancelled... How sad.. *sniffs*

Would have loved to see all the girls... *sighs*

Ah well, hope you guys have a great day today...

*gives out lots of hugs to all those she misses*

You:
"Love is not about finding the right person,
but creating a right relationship.
It's not about how much love you have in the beginning
but how much love you build till the end."

I love you darling..
Forever and Always..
*huge smile*

Hana Last Blogged At
1:13 PM

Tuesday, December 21, 2004

Had a great time at Orchard yesterday... :D

Mum took me, and the two monsters out for a walk around Orchard... Hahahaha.. Of course, we ended up at Swensons.. Hahhahaa... Nothing much to talk about.... The pics below will explain everything...

Harith bought a piece of er.. shit... and Hakim bought an eyeball...

Me and mum had lamb chops... And Hafiz came to join us a little later and had Lamb Chops as well...

Too tired to mention anything else.. Hahahah... All the pics are there... Just scroll down...

erm..... WARNING....... Some of the pics may seem a little disgusting...

Okies... That's all i have for today...

CHURRAH!!!

Hana Last Blogged At
3:47 PM