Friday, February 27, 2004
Bored....... Stiff.
Have been browsing Harry Potter fanart..hmm... almost obsessively...
I'm going crazy... and I'm not sure why.
Shit.
Shit. Shit. Shit.
Ah........ the mood swings of a volatile 18-year-old.
Is it the loneliness finally settling in?
Bah.
FANART and FANFICTION.
Yes, Hana's gone bonkers.
Oh, A Level results a-coming.
Thanks Fiza, for the reality-check.
Excuse me. (AAAAAAAAARRRRRGGGGGHHHHHHH..)
*Cough. cough. Sputter..*
Ah. Shit.
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1:03 AM
Wednesday, February 25, 2004
I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
[CHORUS:]
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
[Chorus]
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
And though your still with me
I've been alone all along
[Chorus]
My Immortal - Evanescence
Hana Last Blogged At
5:23 PM
Monday, February 23, 2004
You Know You Like Draco Malfoy Too Much When...
-You only read the parts of the book with him in.
-When you bought the DVDs, you fast-forwarded the whole movie except for the parts with Draco in.
-You learnt all his lines from the movie AND the book off by heart, and can recite them at any moment.
-You printed loads of pictures of him and stuck them on your bedroom wall. (*Whistles innocently*)
-You collect all the pics of him you can find on your computer.
-You were crazy enough to join the Tom Felton.com boards.
-Your avatars all feature... guess who?... DRACO!
-Anyone who hates him is on your death list.
-You brainwashed your entire family into liking him.
-You search every shop you can think of for Draco merchandise.
-You bid loads of money on eBay for one measley little doujinshi which probably only has him on one page.
-You write fanfics about him...
- ...featuring you as his girlfriend...
- ...(or boyfriend)...
- ...and try to get it published unsuccessfully.
-You have dreams about him. (Now that IS scary)
-You think he's real.
-You bleach your hair and when people ask why you say "Draco would like it".
-You think about Draco more than anything. (*Points at you* Freak!)
-You pay loads of money to go to England to get Tom F's autograph but you don't manage to get it because you couldn't get to the front of the queue. (Damn fangirls...)
-You yelled at the cinema screen when he fell off his Nimbus in the Chamber of Secrets.
-You made a 'Sacred Draco Shrine' in your bedroom and pray there every night because he's your god.
-When people ask who you're gonna marry when you grow up, you say "Draco."
-Your family disowned you when you said that.
-All of your friends that haven't abandoned you from terror tell you to shut up about Draco.
-You squealed "HE'S SO CUTE!!!" whenever he came on screen in the Chamber of Secrets, and loads of people complained to the manager.
-You sew your own Draco plushie and take it everywhere.
-You even make different sets of clothes for him, including ferret pyjamas. : )
-You beg your parents for an eagle owl, and attempt to curse them when you can't have one.
-You're obsessed with ferrets just because of Draco.
-You stick pictures of him in your locker at school.
-You've locked yourself in your room once before because your parents or siblings insulted him.
-You make a set of wallpapers, icons and screensavers for your computer. (Not me. *Cough*)
-You're going to send letter-bombs to JKR if she kills him in the last book.
-You don't support slash "because Draco wouldn't like it".
-You change your mind a few days later and support all the slash couples that Draco's in.
-You deliberately broke your wrist and went to school complaining just like Draco did.
Hana Last Blogged At
7:49 PM
Saturday, February 21, 2004
SOmeone sent this email to me.... Tell me if you guys want it...
DECEMBER: Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egoistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical.
WAHAHAHA... I dunno... WHat do you guys think?
Hana Last Blogged At
1:00 AM
Harlow..... Hana is back in Singapore... Wahahaha...
Had a fabulous time at Shah Alam... WHEEEEEE.............
Spent a lot of mOney on hahah... cheap BraNdeD goods....
GUCCI!!
LEVIS!!!
Kheheheh...
Yo Roo... Thanks for coming... Hahahah... hope you don't hate what I wrote about you...
I'm like, just anOtheR GIIIIIIRL............
Wahahaha...
Going crazy, and I don't know why....
WHEEEEEEE...............
Hana Last Blogged At
12:01 AM
Tuesday, February 17, 2004
'Ello ppl!!!!
Hana is currently at Shah Alam... Typing away on her uncle's computer.... Hehehe... It's very cosy here.... Just lazing around... *winks*
SO it's me and my cuzen here now, devouring my uncle's entire collection of DVD and VCD... Watched Hindustan movies all day... ZZZZZZZ..... Tried to finish Lizzie Maguire the Movie three times... was successful on the fourth try... (dun even know why i'm telling you ppl this...)
Am currently talking to Farhan, who has finished some field camp... How come no one else is online? *SOBZ*
Okies... Tired of typing... will go do something else... Bubye!!
Hana Last Blogged At
9:55 PM
Monday, February 16, 2004
What Pattern Are You?
Labels: quizzes
Hana Last Blogged At
12:32 AM
What the hell is a spork??? WAHAHAHA....
Labels: quizzes
Hana Last Blogged At
12:29 AM
Goodbye Friends.... Am off to KL!!! Wahahaha... See you!!!
Fiza: Sorry you can't make it dearie... Will miss ya...
Farhan: Whatever...
Siti Amirah: Nyeh-nyeh-nyeh-nyeh-nyeh.....
HEHEHEHE... See ya!!
Hana Last Blogged At
12:23 AM
Saturday, February 14, 2004
You're a Spike Lover!
Are you a Spike addict? brought to you by Quizilla
Hahahahahahhahahahahahahah....Labels: quizzes
Hana Last Blogged At
9:50 AM
Your Cool spike you take it like it comes and you
know the world is yours anyway you dont dislike
people they just tast nice so you eat them. You
just love having fun
"What Spike (from buffy the vamp slayer) personality are you?" brought to you by Quizilla
*DROOOOOOOLS*....wipe with tissue... *DROOOOOOOOOOLS*Labels: quizzes
Hana Last Blogged At
9:44 AM
Snarky!Draco - One of the best Dracos out there,
you're witty, sexy and still rather dangerous.
You're such a turn on, you. You're not
Redeemed!Draco, but you're not evil. Paired
with female characters.
Which Draco Fanfiction Cliche are You? brought to you by Quizilla
YES!! YES!!! I finally got the result I wanted!!! Hahahaha.... I think Draco Malfoy's an excellent BAD BOY... Kind of like the younger version of SPIKE.... WAHAHAAHA
*DROOOLS*Labels: quizzes
Hana Last Blogged At
9:37 AM
So, yaay... We finally forgot all about the 'I'm not speaking to you thing'.. In other words, I have spoken to the guy I didn't want speak to. Yeah, he was on guard duty. Haha.. Guarding the blasted gate at PA.
So that one is water over the bridge.. Thank God..
On to the next major happening... (WAHAHA) HE sent me a Valentine greeting on sms.
Contrary to what you may think about Hana being enthusiastic over a stoopid sms, Hana says that it's a bloody MIRACLE cos this guy has
never said HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY to her AT ALL... Even when they were attached....
AND SHE DOESN'T CARE WHAT YOU PEOPLE THINK. Wahaha...
*SIGH*
Feeling
ABSURDLY happy!!!
Tra la la la.....
WHEEEEEEE!!!!
Labels: unrequited rants
Hana Last Blogged At
8:59 AM
Thursday, February 12, 2004
YESH!!!! Hana has finally found A JOB!!!
Hahaha... And the job found me!!!
I get $80 a commision... Not going to bore you with the details...
SO far, that guy has confronted me about not speaking to him... notice the irony...
Whatever lah... I'm currently too... tired... to care...
Jaded.
Submerged in ennui.
Poor guy.
I've never felt this un-guilty before...
What's happening to me?
Oh yeah.
I've lost the old me, found a new one.
A more evil one.
Beware, beware....
WAHAHAHAHAH...
Labels: ennui
Hana Last Blogged At
8:53 PM
Wednesday, February 11, 2004
Darn.
I don't believe this. Everytime I write about him,.... never mind.
So I did a couple of stupid things over the weekend, like being mundane, not answering my handphone. Keeping busy, busy, busy...
All because I didn't want to talk to him.
I know, I know. It's not fair to him, but I really don't want to.
I actually took up watercolour people.... Yesssss, because my name is Hana, and I'm JOBLESS... hahaha... Have done three potraits the past two days.
On to the next piece of news... I'm leaving for KL on Monday next week, for an unconfirmed paid vacation. (the unconfirmed part would be the paid part.)
I also bought a book to write in..... about my ex-boyfriend. Give a round of applause to the guy who made Hana evil....
Hahaha...
Yes, if you think Hana is nuts for having feelings for a guy she has not been with, nor SEEN for two years..... YOU'RE NOT WRONG.
I STILL *LIKE* HIM.
Shit.
There, I said it.
I disgust myself.
Labels: unnecessary posting, unrequited rants
Hana Last Blogged At
11:05 AM
Which Angel Are You?
Peaceful Angel
Please rate this quiz I worked really hard on the
pics and everything thanks and I hope that you
have had fun
NEW!! Which Angel are you?(pics for anyone/14 outcomes!!)brought to you by QuizillaLabels: quizzes
Hana Last Blogged At
10:42 AM
Mythological form?
You are Form 0,
Phoenix: The Eternal.
"And The Phoenix's cycle had reached
zenith, so he consumed himself in fire. He
emerged from his own ashes, to be forever
immortal."Some examples of the Phoenix Form are Quetzalcoatl
(Aztec), Shiva (Indian), and Ra-Atum
(Egyptian).
The Phoenix is associated with the concept of life,
the number 0, and the element of fire.
His sign is the eclipsed sun.
As a member of Form 0, you are a determined
individual. You tend to keep your sense of
optomism, even through tough times and have a
positive outlook on most situations. You have
a way of looking at going through life as a
journey that you can constantly learn from.
Phoenixes are the best friends to have because
they cheer people up easily.
Which Mythological Form Are You?brought to you by QuizillaLabels: quizzes
Hana Last Blogged At
10:39 AM
Wednesday, February 04, 2004
Have You Ever?
What IS Love?hahaha... I haven't a frigging idea. Sometimes I think that I am in love with a certain someone, then I get up one day and decide that someone is SO not for me. Yes, that's the real
KILLER. When you
THINK you're in Love.
HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN LOVE? BEEN IN LOVE SO BAD?
YOU'D DO ANYTHING... TO MAKE THEM UNDERSTAND....I looked through my old diaries and journals. So far, I thought I had been in Love with at least three guys, only to find out much much later that all I felt for them was INFATUATION.
HAVE YOU EVER HAD SOMEONE, STEAL YOUR HEART AWAY?
YOU'D GIVE ANYTHING... TO MAKE THEM FEEL THE SAME...It's a pity you can't actually differentiate LOVE from INFATUATION. I mean, there'd probably be less broken hearts now if that were the case...
HAVE YOU EVER SEARCHED FOR WORDS, TO GET YOU IN THEIR HEART?
BUT YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY...
AND YOU DON'T KNOW WHERE TO START...Yeah.. So what's being
IN LOVE really like? Is it the fluttering of your tummy everytime THAT PERSON is near? Or that 'I MISSS HIMM SOOOO MUCH' feeling you have when THAT PERSON isn't?
HAVE YOU EVER LOVED SOMEBODY SO MUCH IT MAKES, YOU CRY?
HAVE YOU EVER NEEDED SOMETHING SO BAD YOU CAN'T, SLEEP AT NIGHT?Ah... I don't really get it. Somebody please tell me what LOVE is all about 'cause I have no idea. hahaha... Come to think of it, I don't even have the knack for it.
HAVE YOU EVER TRIED TO FIND THE WORDS, BUT THEY DON'T COME OUT RIGHT?
HAVE YOU EVER? HAVE YOU EVER?Labels: song writes, unrequited rants
Hana Last Blogged At
6:02 PM
Tuesday, February 03, 2004
Claiming My Wings
You are one of the few out there whose wings are
truly
ANGELIC. Selfless, powerful, and
divine, you are one blessed with a certain
cosmic grace. You are unequalled in
peacefulness, love, and beauty. As a Being of
Light your wings are massive and a soft white
or silver. Countless feathers grace them and
radiate the light within you for all the world
to see. You are a defender, protector, and
caretaker. Comforter of the weak and forgiver
of the wrong, chances are you are taken
advantage of once in awhile, maybe quite often.
But your innocence and wisdom sees the good in
everyone and so this mistreatment does not make
you colder. Merciful to the extreme, you will
try to help misguided souls find themselves and
peace. However not all Angelics allow
themselves to be gotten the better of - the
Seraphim for example will be driven to fighting
for the sake of Justice and protection of those
less powerful. Congratulations - and don't ever
change - the world needs more people like you.
*~*~*Claim Your Wings - Pics and Long Answers*~*~*brought to you by QuizillaWahahaha.... I doubt people will agree to me having ANGELIC wings.... hahaha.... Quoting Farhan,"Hana is evil..." hahaha.... Oh, whatever.... Bunch of nonsense.... Love the butterflies in the dome thingy though.... THE WORLD NEEDS MORE PEOPLE LIKE MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!! AAAARGH!!! SAVE THE WORLD!!!!!
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Hana Last Blogged At
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