Thursday, October 30, 2003
Only In Silence
You came into my life
Quietly, Simply, Placidly
And my words stood still...
~*~
I couldn't even express in words
Or even in simple gestures
The secret I kept in my heart
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So I loved in silence,
Admired you from a distance,
Dreamt of you from afar.
~*~
I wanted to say I love you...
I wanted to say I care.
But cowardly, maybe, you'll only laugh at me.
~*~
In silence then I will love you...
In silence then I will care...
Labels: poetic views
Hana Last Blogged At
1:37 PM
Kiss The Rain
Hello..
Can you hear me?
Am I getting through to you...
Hello..
Is it late there?
Is there laughter on the line?
Are you sure you're there alone?
'Cause I'm trying to explain...
Something's wrong, you just don't sound the same...
Why don't you, why don't you,
Go outside, go outside,
Kiss the rain,
Whenever you need me..
Kiss the rain,
Whenever I'm gone too long..
If your lips,
Feel lonely and thirsty..
Kiss the rain,
And wait for the dawn..
Keep in mind,
We're under the same sky..
And the nights,
As empty for me, as for you..
If you feel,
You can't wait till morning..
Kiss the rain...
Kiss the rain..
Kiss the rain...
Hello..
Do you miss me?
I HEAR you SAY you DO..
But NOT the way I'M MISSING YOU...
What's new?..
How's the weather?
Is it stormy where you are?
'Cause I'm so close, but it feels like you're SO FAR..
Oh would it mean anything?
If you knew, WHAT I'M LEFT IMAGINING..
In my mind, in my mind,
Would you go, would you go..
Labels: song writes
Hana Last Blogged At
1:04 PM
To Each His Own
Hello.. I smsed S the other day.. Yes S.. The one I have feelings for.. To tell you the truth, I don't know what I want.. I KNOW I have feelings for him.. But it's just not the same when you KNOW he does not have the same feelings for you.
I asked him to reject me the other day.. Just so I can move on.. I don't ever want to live wondering whether we might have worked it out or not.. So I took a risk.. I risked my ego, my real feelings.. Wore my heart on my sleeve. And he didn't reply to my message. Just shows innit?
Then I was totally pissed I guess. Sort of sent him another message saying that all he had to do was send me two words.. Two BLOODY words, GO AWAY, and I'll get out of his life.. Aaaaand he didn't..
Instead, he went and sent me a message that went, "Make a Heart that Never Breaks, Make A Smile That Never Fails, Make A Touch That Never Pains,
MAKE A RELATIONSHIP THAT NEVER ENDS."
I was like, what the? Then I asked him what that meant, and he didn't really wanna give any details... Bottom line, we could still go out, but with no strings attached..
Now that I've had a few days to ponder about this, and tons of unreplied messages.. I think that I might not want to live like this.. It really hurts because, he DOESN'T care ENOUGH to send me a reply.. Haha.. Talk about being dumb. For the same guy.. Puh..
Hahaha.. Well, I'll just leave things the way it is.. for countless times, I've told myself that he doesn't deserve these tears I cry for him.. Yet.. yet.. Deep inside me, I really want him to BE THE ONE..Labels: unrequited rants
Hana Last Blogged At
12:56 PM
Sunday, October 26, 2003
Goodbye to you?
And it hurts to want EVERYTHING
and NOTHING at the SAME TIME..
I want what's YOURS and I
Want what's MINE..
I want YOU,
But I'm NOT giving in THIS TIME...
-Goodbye To You
Well.. Yeah.. Figured out that I'm still in like with S... My, my... Yeah, when you think about it, I do compare him to other guys.. Lucky dumbass.. Hahaha..
I had a phone conversation with N a few days back.. Apparently he's over whoever... HELLO? You can't get over someone you've liked for such a long time just like that! Puhleease... But I'm not saying he's lying or anything... He believes that he's gotten over them.. Ahha, them.
Anyway, it's not really a big deal whether you still like someone, or you don't. Take me for example... Two years and a relationship later, I STILL have feelings for him...Labels: unrequited rants
Hana Last Blogged At
10:11 AM
Saturday, October 25, 2003
If You Were Mine
I see what she's doing to you..
And it hurts me so..
I wish i could steal you away, but you,
JUST WON'T GO...
Something's holding you close to her,
Something I can't see..
But come the day that you've had enough,
I pray you'll come running to me...
Hahaha.. I don't know... I like him but I don't, I have a crush on him but I don't.. Sigh... Whatever...
A's mum has been warded... He says two to three days... Poor A...
Hahaha... H hasn't been smsing me.. Yes, now I know for sure the extent of his 'liking' for me... so what if we spent time together... hahaha...
I hope i'm not treating R like dirt.. I just have to tell him in the gentlest way that I don't like him dat way... Scared that I HAVE been leading him on... Stupid..Labels: unnecessary posting
Hana Last Blogged At
4:33 PM
